Coming into this adventure I knew I would be homesick and that Christmas (and subsequently my birthday) would be the worst season for me. And I was correct. Christmas is but a week away and I am missing home so much. Not America per se but my family. I have NEVER spent a Christmas or birthday without my family and the closer it gets to these days I feel sad. I will not get to see my niece and nephew open their presents. Heck I will not get to wrap their presents (which is half the fun of gift giving). I will not see the Christmas Santa Clause or drink hot chocolate at Hall's. It is all becoming clear to me that I am not home with my family like I have always been.
I think it would be semi-better if my birthday was not right there as well. As a family we always go out for birthday dinners together and this year I will not be participating in this activity. Two big days that I have always spent with family are no longer going to be spent with family and it is hard.
I was talking to someone last night about it and he suggested Skyping, which yes helps but only so much. There is something about being physically there and watching everything that makes it wonderful.
I also think that not having any real plans for Christmas or my birthday are also causing some issues. I will be alone on Christmas and that is not something anyone should experience. As of right now there are no parties or anything that I know of. The day before my birthday I am going to Daegu for a concert that one of my students bands is playing. I will be coming home on my birthday and will probably end up doing absolutely nothing. Again kind of depressing.
Hopefully it gets better but I know that Christmas and my birthday are going to be semi-sad days for me.
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